MENTAL FATIGUE

After the A-Z challenge I told myself that I was going to take a little time off and I guess I did, from blogging at least. My job is so mentally demanding and now also physically demanding that I am still feeling drained.

I have not written anything in weeks and I am so scared that all my creativity has been used up. Silly I know…but that’s me.

One piece of good news is that all my editing is done. 9 drafts later and this will be the manuscript I will query. I will not be editing again, unless an agent or publisher asks me to. So this is Immortal: New Beginning’s last shot at getting me an agent and after at least 50 rejections I will put it away.

I have written one or two other stories during this year and last year but I truly think this one is my best work to date. So at least I am going to start querying again.

I don’t know what is going on with me but I feel so out of touch with the whole blogging world. I apologize that I have not been stopping by anyone’s blogs. I really hope to get out of this slump soon. I need to write and more importantly, I want to write.

VERSATILE BLOGGER AWARD

I received this awesome award from Lea at http://wantonredheadwriting.blogspot.com/

Ok, so this award comes with rules...

1. Thank and link to the person who nominated you.

Thank you Lea at http://wantonredheadwriting.blogspot.com/. I am really happy to receive this award and I am also very surprised. I am doing my happy dance as I type.

2. Share 7 random facts about yourself.

- I love bubblegum milkshakes.

- My favourite food is burgers and potatoes.

- I have a tattoo on the inside of my left wrist.

- I prefer having my hair short (as in pixie style short).

- I love history.

- I never back down from an argument.

- I am an animal person.

3. Pass this award on to 5 deserving bloggers.

I don't like this part because I always feel bad that I couldn't pass it on to everyone. But rules are rules so here goes...

Heather http://hmgardner.blogspot.com/

Brianna http://pocketfulofplaydough.pageek.com/wordpress/

Tonja http://tonjasmusings.blogspot.com/

M.J. http://haleine-paperbackwriter.blogspot.com/

Mary http://gigglesandguns.blogspot.com

4. Congratulate the above mentioned people on receiving their award.

I will go do so immediately. Thank you for stopping by.

PLEASE LET THE END BE IN SIGHT

Today I am feeling a bit disheartened. Why? Well I have been editing my first novel for a while now. A Year and a half to be exact. The funny thing is that it only took me 3 months to write it. It currently feels as if I won't ever get past the editing process. I know editing is necessary but 9 drafts of the same book? No, I think it is time to stop editing already. At least that is how I feel. My brother who wasn't very enthusiastic about my writing, read my book and has recently joined my personal cheer section and wants nothing more than for me to be published. He believes I am that good. He, like me, is a perfectionist and reminds me constantly to make my manuscript perfect. It can be a bit tiresome wanting to be perfect all the time.

The other reason I am a bit bummed is that I completely missed my 1 year blog anniversary! The horror! I don't know how the 17Th of May passed me by. I only realized that today is the 18Th. And the sad part is that you only have your first blog birthday once...

So... A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL MY FOLLOWERS. I APPRECIATE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU. THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME AND CATCHING ME WHEN AT TIMES I KEPT FALLING. YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME. AN EXTRA BIG THANK YOU TO HEATHER GARDNER. WE BOTH STARTED IN THE SAME MONTH BUT YOU HAVE ENCOURAGED AND HELPED ME ALONG SINCE THE BEGINNING. THANK YOU. I COULDN'T HAVE REACHED THIS MILESTONE WITHOUT YOU.

FRIDAY THE 13TH

Nothing really awful happened to me today, which is a first and I am grateful for it. The only thing I find very weird is that some of my comments on my blog has been removed. Has anybody had a similar problem? I know for a fact I didn't remove it and it was there before I went to bed last night.

My mom seriously has a thing about Friday the 13Th. She doesn't leave the house. But this has been one of our better Friday the 13Th's.

Hope everyone survived it and that nothing bad happened to anyone.

LOVE LETTERS

The ancient form of communication, which many loved ones used to stay in touch. Though, I must admit in modern day times have gone into disuse. Now it is love letters by email or even text messages.

I embarrassingly must admit I have written my fair share of love letters, much to my own agony. I hate remembering all the memories of rejection, but if only it had deterred me completely from making an ass of myself. My last love letter was sent 2 years ago to a guy I had had a crush on in college. I had never had the nerve to say anything to him then, but with the possible prospect of going oversees, I thought I had nothing to lose.

The body of the letter was not much of a love letter in the end but more or a confessional. Needless to say, I did not get a response. Just silence. I have wondered all this time what he had thought of that letter. That was 2 years ago.

A few days ago a mutual friend told me that he was married, which made me blush a deep red at the possibility of sending such a letter to a married man. I would of course not have sent it had I known. I just hope I never see him ever again. How awkward would that be?

So how about you? Have you written love letters to someone you deeply regretted afterwards or did yours have the desired outcome?

CONGRATULATIONS!

Well Everyone we did it! Congratulations! We completed the A-Z challenge and man was it a fun but a bit of an exhausting ride. Thank you Arlee and the Whole A-Z team for this great challenge.

I also received an awesome award from Elizabeth Mueller at http://elizabethmueller.blogspot.com. Thank you so much.

The A-Z challenge has definitely shown me how important social networking is. You meet new and inspiring people daily. It was fantastic. I also learned to give a little more consideration to my posts before I put it out there for the whole world to read.

It was absolutely amazing meeting all of you. This is not Good-Bye, because I will still be stopping by your blogs from time to time. But I think most of us will probably be taking a few days off to rest and catch up on some much needed sleep. Well I am off to bed. Thank you very much for the fun time.