OVEREXPOSURE

I know many of you, my lovely readers, are going to hate me for saying this, but aside for blogging, I am getting really tired of using social media. I love blogging and like writing, it is apart of the whole package that makes me happy. What I don't like about social media is that if you really want to make a name for yourself you have to use Facebook, which I tried and didn't like and Twitter, which I have no intention of ever using.

As a person I feel overexposed for information. I know as an aspiring writer joining these above mentioned social media websites will just better my chances of meeting new readers and one day perhaps promoting a book, but it is just not for me. Right now I just feel like I want to write and blog and who knows, maybe one day have a website if I do become published, but is it really necessary to partake in all social media experiences? Is the days of wanting to be a private person over?

All the online articles I read about wanting to be a writer talks about how you are nobody if you are not on Facebook and Twitter and strangely enough, being a nobody in those terms kind of appeals to me. I mean come on, why is blogging not good enough? Anyone who reads my blog knows how personal my posts can get and when it comes to interacting with readers, why are emails and comments left on my blog not enough?

I love blogging because I do feel that I interact with great people and I always feel great when I do. It is the form of social media that I have come to love and it fits my personality the best. So is it okay to just blog or do you need the other stuff too? Which do you prefer?

EDITING AND CHAPTER 1

I have printed my full manuscript and I am slowly but surely working my through it. The editing is going well and I am even enjoying it. Surprise, surprise, I know. I think it is probably because there is no rush with this book, as it is the second book of my Immortal series. The first book is currently with my agent.

I have had a great idea for the third book in the series, but when I went to sit at my computer, I had a bit of a hard time writing the first chapter. I always find writing the first chapter of a novel to be the hardest thing. I find it hard as I never really know where to begin and how much information tends to be too much. I know that I have to get the reader's attention from the get go, but I don't want to confuse anyone either. I think I have to check out the first chapter of my favorite novels and see how the professionals did it.

BREAKING DAWN PART 2

Just got back from the showing of Breaking Dawn Part 2 and you guys will not be disappointed.  It does not matter whether you are a fan of the books or previous movies or not. The movie was action packed and the pace kept moving along, so there were none of those awkward moments that were there with the other movies. There was a lot of the humour that was present in the books and which the other movies lacked. It was just a great movie to watch. I am rather sad that this is the end of it all, but in a way I am happy too, as I got to see each book transformed into a movie. We all got to share in the journey. 

I left smiling and feeling a little jealous of Stephenie Meyer and her great concept, that just so happened to touch the hearts of millions of people around the world. 

I HAVE JUST HAD ENOUGH

As most of you know I have been job hunting, but what you did not know was that I still kept my account with Elance. I was naive and hoping that my freelancing bad luck would change, but divine intervention definitely helped me change my mind. Yesterday I met a new client on Elance that wanted me to write articles for him and he was all polite and stuff, but I should have been more weary because I was not officially awarded the job yet.

He gave me all the information last night so that I could start writing and when I emailed him about where I should submit the work to, the guy gives me his personal email address instead of having me work through Elance. Keep in mind that all writing and payments and things should be done through Elance. So when I started asking about how my payment would work, he asks me for my PayPal number and when I mentioned that I don't use PayPal because all my payments go through Elance and that any payments to writers should be done through Elance, the guy emails me back with insults and rudeness, going on about how I was wasting his time and how I was not serious about wanting to work and how I would never find another job again and just being an all round horrible person. Of course he ranted on and on about how he no longer wanted me to work for him...

My point is that if he was not doing anything wrong, why not just answer my questions? Why did he have to be impolite like that, because no professional person acts like that. I of course reported the incident to Elance, because believe it or not, this is not the first time a client wanted to pay me outside Elance and of course that is a violation of the company policy. I have always only worked through Elance and this time was not going to be any different.

Now I am feeling that I have finally had enough of Elance and after this complaint has been settled, I am going to give up freelance writing for good and cancel my account with the company. I am not cut out to work with people. I know that. You guys have no idea how much this guy's emails have affected me and even though I am angry, I am also very hurt. I can now see that freelancing is not for me.

What other jobs are there where you do not have to work with people? Aside for you guys, I am loosing confidence in the rest of humanity.

SKIPPING A FEW STEPS

I had written up an editing strategy for my second book, but I must now admit that I deviated from it and printed out my manuscript regardless. I could not make anymore changes on the computer. My eyes were starting to hurt and I was overlooking obvious mistakes. So, I printed the manuscript a lot earlier than planned, after all, I already fixed most of the obvious mistakes. I am sure editing will be a lot easier with this method, though, I do feel guilty for using so much paper. But it had to be done.

LINKIN PARK ROCKS!

Last night was one of the best nights of my life. My sisters surprised me with tickets to the Linkin Park Concert in Cape Town and man, oh, man was it an experience! There were all kinds of people from different kinds of backgrounds, it did not matter, everyone united for this wonderful event.

 Cape Town Stadium

The Kongos were the opening act and did a fantastic job in creating the perfect musical vibe and even local Cape Town star Jack Parow made an appearance and instantly made the crowd take the enjoyment to another level. So when it was time for the main act, everyone was all revved up and ecstatic to see the band live and singing all the songs we love. They just so happen to be one of my favorite bands!

 View from Cape Town Stadium

It goes without saying that Linkin Park was absolutely and mind blowingly brilliant. I enjoyed myself so much that it was truly an experience I will never forget. My family and I sang along, we head banged when the music called for it and screamed when Chester, the lead singer instructed. I will even go so far as to say that this was the perfect experience to make me forget about all the bad ones the past few weeks.

My view of the stage

Sadly though, as we left we heard about a local advertising tower that had collapsed on top of several Linking Park fans, due to strong winds and that there were many fans injured and as far as I know, one lady died. My prayers and sympathy goes out to all the victims and their families. 

INSECURITY RAISES ITS UGLY HEAD

When it comes to insecurities, I have to admit I have plenty. It would be a lot easier listing the few things I am not insecure about, than to name all my insecurities, because let me tell you, we would be here for days. But I guess the biggest thing I have a problem with is that I do not know who I am without writing.

I am now in the process of job hunting, after working as a freelance writer (unsuccessfully). I loved freelancing. I got to work from home, work my own hours and I got to write, which is what I love. However, regular day jobs don’t have those perks and to be honest, I have become so accustomed to being my own boss, that I find it really hard to come to terms with doing yet another job I do not like. But, now that I will no longer be writing full time, I am really insecure. Not just as a person, but as a writer as well. I failed at finding regular clients and if my writing was so good, I should not have had a problem getting clients. Maybe I was and still am a terrible writer. Perhaps I am just a terrible person and I had it coming.

What I also liked about being a freelance writer was being able to say that I was a writer and that I had an income (not much), but now that I don’t have that anymore, who am I? I am just another aspiring writer trying to become published and who does not have a day job and who dreams big dreams. So I guess, I am just an insecure dreamer.

The Insecure Writers Support Group was created by the wonderful and talented author and blogger, Alex J. Cavanaugh. You guys can visit Alex over at http://alexjcavanaugh.blogspot.com.