There is a very good reason for why I have not been
writing or blogging lately. I would love to say that the reason is because of
work obligations, but in truth, it has been because of health reasons. Because
my blog is all about the truth of my journey towards publication and what my life as a writer is like, I feel I have to share my true reason for my absence.
I have been suffering from depression and am now
using medication to help my brain chemicals get back into balance. My
depression has not been caused because of a specific event, but is rather the result
of many factors beyond my control. This is also not the first time that I have
been diagnosed with this condition. I have also been having stomach problems
and have been diagnosed with a faulty stomach valve, meaning that stomach acid
pushes back up my esophagus, causing the worst heartburn imaginable and this
terrible sensation and taste at the back of my throat.
It is not serious at this point and I am receiving
medication for it as well, which is supposed to help with the acid reflux. One
side effect is that I get hungry every few hours and I need to eat as soon as
possible, or my acid pushes back up. I have found that protein lasts longer and
that soy irritates my stomach, so most vegetarian options are out the window,
aside for beans and I have temporarily gone back to eating chicken and fish. I
feel really guilty about it, considering that I have been a vegetarian for
about 3 ½ years. Hopefully when my stomach feels better, I can go back to being
a vegetarian.
I don’t want anyone to feel sorry for me. Instead I
want people to see that obstacles come on everyone’s path. The kind of
obstacles differs from person to person, but they affect all people from all
walks of life alike. To most people my problems can seem trivial compared to
what they are going through, after all, the worst day for me right now is debating
whether to get out of bed or not, or worrying about what I am going to eat,
when.
I hope all is well with you. Please tell me what is
going on with you.